Friday, August 31, 2012

Love Thy Neighbor

Really?! I hate that commandment. Its so not practical. How are we to love someone who is just a thorn in our lives? I don't know how to do it. There is someone who I wish were not in my life, but I can't do anything about it. I'm being stalked on fb and can't delete this person because it would cause a major upheaval in our lives. I feel like i can't live my life! I'm so upset that this person is in my life. But I can't get rid of them. I have to learn how to love. But could someone please tell me how? This commandment sucks.. Just sayin.

Thursday, August 23, 2012


Oh boy, we've had one beastly moment after another around here! Poor Gemma. She is teething and it's not going well. First we had to deal with her crying all the time because it hurt her to poo before her surgery. Now her teeth hurt and she is not happy! Naps are not happening around here this week. We went to the park a few times to meet up with friends and both times we had to leave early because of Gemma crying out in pain. She won't sleep during the day, and it's making her act even worse because she's over tired too. She has been sleeping all night except to nurse once, for almost 2 months now. But this week she has been getting up twice during the night to nurse. Gemma is drooling like crazy! If she weren't mine I'd think it was gross :) nothing we have tried is helping her that much. She doesn't like those hard teethers and she will chew/suck on a cold rag for a while but cries after a few min. I don't know what to do to help her! Do any of you have any tips? I'll try almost anything at this point. I don't know how long this is going to last either. Her bottom gums are a little white but it doesn't look like a tooth is going to pop in for a while. How long is this process??

Monday, August 13, 2012

Favorite Nursing Products

First of all let me say that I have been reading all the blogs, but mostly from my phone, and I cannot for the life of me figure out how to post a comment! I can write a comment, but then there is no button for me to post it! Very frusterating, hoping to have a new phone and new service very soon! Anywho, I LOVE nursing Gemma, so I thought I would share some of my favorite products and want to know if any of you have any different products that you can't live without!
   The very first thing that I used for nursing was the Boppy, I hated it! We got a "free" one from the NICU and Gemma could never stay on it, and rolled into the space between me and the boppy, very frusterating and hard for her to nurse effectively. My sister had given me her MY BREASTFRIEND nursing pillow, and I thought it looked so wierd and that I could never use that, but it quickly became my go to pillow!
This pillow is nice and flat and firm! That was a huge thing for me, especially b/c I was new at this, I needed a pillow that really helped me to hold Gemma in the right way. I really liked how it also goes behind your back to help give you support where you need it, so you don't need tons of other pillows to support your back.
     The second item that has saved me time and time again is the UDDER COVER! lol I love the name. I had no idea how to nurse without having my entire breast exposed at the begining, that if I had to nurse Gemma somewhere it wasn't a huge ordeal. And now it helps keep Gemma focused on eating instead of what is going on around her.
The third and most amazing item that I have purchased is the SKINIES nursing Tank. AMAZING!!! I can nurse anywhere anytime and not be worried about what kind of top I'm wearing. This tank goes under any shirt and lays flat over my bra. It also helps slim down my belly! I dont' always need the udder cover, especially when I'm just with family. This tank has the holes cut out so all you have to do is reach under and undo your bra! It hides your belly and really you can't tell that I'm nursing when I am wearing it.

I would be very interested to know if anyof you have tried any of these products or have anyothers that you just love!!                                                                                                                                 

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Four Months

So, who do you think she looks like? lol

Sunday, August 5, 2012

Decision Made

So I finally came to a decision... I am going to be a stay at home mamma!!! I made it harder than it needed to be. I dont do well with change first of all and I hate feeling like Im letting people down. Im not going to apologize for feeling like I needed a break. For me after all we went through I think I deserved some time of my own. At least for my own sanity. I first felt that I should stay working because I felt that in this economy I am lucky to have a job and I didnt want to squander an opportunity that the Lord gave me.. but he also gave me Gemma! Then I really had needed some me time. I really did. I cant describe how bad off I was emotionally. I mean as soon as Gemma was born she was taken from me and I wasnt able to be with her for the first day of her life! I also had my own recovery to deal with. It was not easy for me at all. I believe I had a mild case of post partum. It lasted for the first 8 weeks. I didnt feel anything after I gave birth. And then I couldnt even bond with Gemma for 3 days. I didnt have time to recover physically either. And then when I should have been getting back to normall hormone wise Gemma had her surgery. So I had another week of emotional issues. So that is my story. I had to take it all and think about what the Lord put in my path. He gave me Gemma to take care of and He gave me just enough time to get myself back so I can take care of her the way I need to. I am very excited to stay home. :) Im glad I got the time to go back to work and now I can just focus on my baby. This is how its suppose to be for us. God gives us all a different path to take and this is mine. I pray for the grace to be the person He wants me to be :) Oh I am posting this from my phone so Im sorry abot the punctuation and spelling!